Thursday, November 17, 2005

its cold and flu season

the children have all lost there emotional stubility. these people can no longer make it more then two hours without an emotional outburst of some kind. its like the flu bug has mutated into some sort of mind altering. emotionaly warping infection that has cut off there memory on how to behave at school. or that Teacher Lisa has rules that she expects you to remember.
then again maybe its my partner teachers fault. the fact that they have no boundaries or rules in the afternoons. the fact that she has rules that she doesn't hold them to. the fact that she has decided that it's okay to let kids rome free in a structured setting and give them nothing to do. yea that's why their parents are paying out buckets of money. so that their kids will be confussed as to what is expected of them.
don't get me wrong. i know kids need freedom but they need rules too. there is a balance between the two. i know that balance. i've worked ith kids along time. they need to feel safe in there boundaries. they'll push you to your limit. i know this. she SHOULD know this. she's makin' me crazy.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

someone should move it

it was a moment of confusion for the poor young girl. she's a very sweet little girl. loveing and sweet to all people. i was holding her and it was time for naps. i sat her down and she turned (quickly) to go to class....
oooooooops! she ran her faced directly into the corner of the door. yea HUGE bruse.

Me Again?

i have to tell you the long and the short of it.

The Long:
i have had a personal struggle going on within myself for the past two years. it's been ugly, lonely, disapointing, hurtful , and draining. i wont go into it.
today i see some light at the end of the tunnel.
i tried to live my life without something dear to me. i thought it was what i was "supposed" to do. i know today that i was wrong. and i am glad to feel like i have hope in my future.

The Short:
i had an audition this week. i got a call back. i wont know until tomorrow what the end result is.
i haven't had an audition in two years. (a little more)
i have been trying to be something i'm not. i tried to leave acting behind like it wasn't what i was supposed to be doing it any more.
but today i feel like me again. i feel like i found something that was precious to me.
i guess i'm saying i learned something. you can't be something your not. and / or you have to be true to yourself to become your best self. something i have always known but somehow let myself forget. the Lord dose teach us in a mannor most effective for our own selves. i am so glad He knows me like that. i feel i have also regained my dearest friend. not that i lost Him, but that i know Him better because He knows me.

i do love the gosple. it is so complete.

UPDATE: 11/12/05

I got it!!! I'm am "Ruth" in the show titled "Dear Ruth"
Hale Center theater in Orem. the show opens Dec. 30th and runs through Feb. 4th
yippee i'm an actor again!!!!

Monday, November 07, 2005

scarey spiders

this is the best spider story ever!
this mornig young jordin was in my class with his big sister and an assortment of other mixed age group kids.
teacher mindy came to get her three year olds. (jordin among them)there was a spider on the floor next to jordin. in a moment of great ignorance mindy pointed out to jordin that the spider was crawling under him.
surprisingly enough he didn't freak out.......right away.
he thought it was cool, so he picked it up and threw it into the air. laughing and smiling. he caught it and threw it again. but that's when the trama started. ya see as the spider fell to him the second time he go.....well.....scared. and began to cry and....well scream. and all together came unglued. and freaked out.
for some reason the boy didn't expect that the spider he had so lovingly tossed into the air.....would return.
understand that the spider made no attempt to hurt him in any way. the child just freaked out. for 12 minutes. crying and sobing.
it was fully entertaining.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Prison vs. Work

I just got this emailed from my brother. i had a giggle or too.

Just in case you ever got these two mixed up, This should make things
bit more clear....

IN PRISON you spend the majority of your time in an 8X10 cell.
AT WORK you spend the majority of your time in a 6X8 cubicle.

IN PRISON you get three meals a day.
AT WORK you only get a break for one meal and you pay for it.

IN PRISON you get time off for good behavior.
AT WORK you get more work for good behavior.

IN PRISON the guard locks and unlocks all the doors for you.
AT WORK you must carry around a security card and open all the doors
for yourself.

IN PRISON you can watch TV and play games.
AT WORK you get fired for watching TV and playing games.

IN PRISON you get your own toilet.
AT WORK you have to share with some idiot who pees on the toilet.

IN PRISON they allow your family and friends to visit.
AT WORK you can't speak to your family.

IN PRISON all expenses are paid by the taxpayers with no work
AT WORK you get to pay all the expenses to go to work and then they
deduct taxes from your salary to pay for prisoners.

IN PRISON you spend most of your life inside bars wanting to get out.
AT WORK you spend most of your time wanting to get out and go inside

IN PRISON you must deal with sadistic wardens.
AT WORK they are called managers

Thursday, November 03, 2005

noodles and children

today was spaghetti day. have you ever watched a three or four year old try to eat a noodle...with a fork. it's like these compoents were never ment to meet up. it's like a bad joke. a child a noodle and a fork walk up to a bar......
really i could have watched them for a full hour. there were several different tactics going on at the table. first there was the wind up and slip. the child would get the noodle on the fork get it to witin an inch of their mouth and the noodle would abandon ship. next was the dig and shove. after missing the last bite the child would jam the fork into the plate along with their free hand and then using both hands shovel the noodles into the mouth. when that didn't work the fork was dropped the face was put as close to the plate as possible and the suck was enforced.
slurp it up kids it's the only way to eat a noodle. next time i think i will join them in the slurp. 'cause really it's very effective.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005


do you ever have those times when you just want to forgo hygeine. forget you know what a shower is. or move far away to a place where showers are rare like......the back allies of zimbabwa.
basicly i am tired an there is way to much energy involved in being clean right now.
we better get a new cook soon. i can't take this opening everyday. okay i can. but i'm tired today and i want to whine.
whine whine whine whine whine.
k done.