dirty ball

I was playing basketball with my boys at outside time. they like to play "dirty ball" that means they get to use their ball to knock your ball off the court so you have to chase your ball down while they shoot. its very.....fun?
so my good little buddy hit my ball out four times. so it was time to turn the table. i grabbed my ball and bounced his ball high.

then KARMA

I hit his ball, it hit the rim of the hoop and bounced back and hit me in the face.
can you say fat lip. bloody nose and teary eyes.

karma.

the force

today one of my boys told me had "the force"
"look" he said
then he licked his hand and pushed it slowly at another girl. She, of course, leaned back to get away from "the hand" and he said.
" see. the force."
Man I love that kid.

by request: Ring-Pop Boy

we had been dating for a while. the relationship had run it's course and I was preparing to end it. I had given it a weeks grace period but it was no help. we had a date that friday night. I would tell hm then. at the last minute he told me he had invited some friends to join us for dinner. SUPRISE. (never think that a control freak will like a suprise. we never do.)
So we went to dinner with the gang. Good Times.
Then we were to go to a movie. With the Gang. SUPRISE #2
I found a reason not to go.
(I think he thought I wanted to be alone with him. true. 'cause it was break up hour.)
Randomly we went to visit some more of his friends. (I think he was showing me off. FREAK)
Finaly we went to a park. (SUPRISE #3. my turn.) we talked a while and just as I opedned my mouth to tell him I needed some space he says I have something for you.
(Still SUPISE #3. not yet my turn i guess.)
(SUPRISE #4)
He puts on some music.(Titanic)
He has me get out of the car.....to slow dance in the parking lot.(I don't dance)
We dance toward the back of the car and he opens the trunk.(Am I about to die?)
He pulls out some flowers.(Oh gee. I feel another suprise coming on.)
We dance.(I Don't Dance.)
He spins me out and I fall.( I DON'T DANCE MORON!)
He picks me up but he stays down. (says...........lots of words.)
He presents me with.......A Ring Pop!!!!??!?!?!
A RING POP?
a ring pop.
yea buddy glad to know you were so sure of this that you went for the gold. glad to know you tried to learn stuff about ME so that when you asked ME to marry YOU, you'd be sure to present ideas That Would Appeal To All Those OTHER GIRLS You Dated BEFORE me.

Oh Ring Pop Boy. I can't marry you. For you do not know who I am. And you have done nothing to show me that you know or CARE about Who I Am. You see I'm not an ideal. I'm a person. An Individual if you will. And that seems to be a consept that has escaped you.
Thank you for this lovely hard cand and plastic. But there's a reason why DIMONDS are a girls best friend.
DIMONDS are forever. Hardened sugar will only last the night.

There it is Nessa. ENJOY!

chocolate

for six weeks i played an adict. i had to have chocolate at very turn. i fear that the adiction has lasted. all i can think about is it's rich tastey goodness. some of you saw the show. you might think why not miss the friendships or the audiances or for crin' out loud the lip action.
the story was about Ruth indeed. but the love affairs she had with Albert and Bill only come second to her love of chocolate. i think that is the one thing i will keep from the character.
Pear taught me to be kind to animals.
Hannigan taught me to love children
Ruth gave me a true love of the sweetness.

the only problem is now that i'm broke and there is no chocolate in my house.
Evil thy name is SNICKERS.

a moment of trueth

i have a confession to make.
i heard my co actor sing on saturday....he sang a song from jekle & hyde. i knew he could sing. we all know he can sing. he's going to vegas to be n a gerat production of phantom. he's good right.

oh no my friends he's DAMN GOOD.

i'm not gunna lie. i cried a little. not sure why. but there i was sitting in a mostly empty theater. just chillin' with th cast. Allen conviced Ben to sing for us.

DAMN i cried. He's good.

suggesions

i need to find a way to bring up to the administrative staff that our weekly meetings are more useless then helpful. true as a new teacher for the first year it was quite helpful. but year after year the meetings don't change. i don't know how the teachers that have been there for years and years stand it. watching them durring the meeting is like waiting for a bomb to explode. Honestly sitting through this 30 min. meeting is not only patronizing but redundant and rediculous.
any body have an idea other then distruction on how to remedy this situation?

the mullet mans better half

so most of you know the story of H's "mullet man"
a couple of weeks ago i met his brother or cousin or some kind of relative. the chld was not in his right mind.
the conversation frightened me as he gazed at me with one eye and the other spun wildly around in his head.
none of the conversation made sence. it was akward. it was weird. and it made me a better person for having survived it.
H, i hope to never have the full understanding of what you endured so long ago. but my dear i do in some small way feel your pain.

JOY

today my scriptures were found. i lost them in october. my joy is complete.


Happy Happy Happy me.

Dereck

Today my little Dereck said while talking to another child "for Christmas we went to Salt Vegas."
He's my new favorite.

S M R T

so i have been meaning to write down some of my new favorite quotes from my kids.

the kids on Rudolph,
"....and if you ever saw it you would even say it BLOWS" connor

the kids on shoes.
"Teacher Lisa my dada got me super fast super cool super suave new shoes." Nakoa

the kids on Santa,
"aaaaaaahhhh yaaaaaay wooooooooooo." all of them

the kids on cars,
"i like my moms car. it has a lot of things in it." Jordan

Alexi on Moshood,
Me: Alexi get off of Moshood........kidding
Alexi can't say his name so she calls him "Tissue"

the end

oh the children

so the kids are on one. they are killing me. don't they know that "santa is coming"
my jonnathan my sweet little jonnathatn has taken up whining. like nobody's business. oh he's good at too. too good at it.
the other day one of my boys filled a toilet to the rim with paper towels.
and why do i have to constantly repeat myself about not licking things they shouldn't be licking and keeping their sleeves out of their mouths.
is it so hard.
they've started this new habbit of talking over me when i am addressing the class. wonder where they got that.AMY (ps today was her last day. Hooray.
i want my sweet kids back. i want a partner teacher that knows SOMETHING about children.
i want a teacher next door who knows something anything.

i want heather back.......now

it wasn't my day

-i woke up an hour before my alarm
-it's saterday.
-i can go back to sleep. even the sales don't start for another two hours.
nope aparently my body isn't sleepy...
-tv?
-why not
-oh look law and order

6:00am

SALES!!!!!!
SHOPPING!!!
BLISS!!!!!!
(i like early mornings. and early morning sales. there is no one around. barely even sales reps asking if they can help you find something.)

-work christmas party lunch thing....
-yea friends and fun
-ops i tripped in front of everybody.
-just because you dont want to be the stupid volenteer doesnt mean you ALL need to shout out my name. get your own damn ideas. freaks
-ops i'm among the volenteers
-ops my fly is down
-can i go home now.

-movies friends yea
-i'm sleepy
-what do you mean it's only 9:00 pm
-10:something good night
-10: something + a few minutes.....i'm teaching tomorrow...choooooou (ch as in "K")
-i'll do it in the morning
-good night

i would if i could but i cant

welcome to the holidays Ritz style. where all year long we ignore each other for the most part. then ma gets to fake like shes offended when we don't all come home. as far as i know non of us are going to make it home this year. sean has to work kevin can't yet leave the state. and i can't go...i have rehearsal. and the biggest reason of all. none of us can afford to travel.

its cold and flu season

the children have all lost there emotional stubility. these people can no longer make it more then two hours without an emotional outburst of some kind. its like the flu bug has mutated into some sort of mind altering. emotionaly warping infection that has cut off there memory on how to behave at school. or that Teacher Lisa has rules that she expects you to remember.
then again maybe its my partner teachers fault. the fact that they have no boundaries or rules in the afternoons. the fact that she has rules that she doesn't hold them to. the fact that she has decided that it's okay to let kids rome free in a structured setting and give them nothing to do. yea that's why their parents are paying out buckets of money. so that their kids will be confussed as to what is expected of them.
don't get me wrong. i know kids need freedom but they need rules too. there is a balance between the two. i know that balance. i've worked ith kids along time. they need to feel safe in there boundaries. they'll push you to your limit. i know this. she SHOULD know this. she's makin' me crazy.

someone should move it

it was a moment of confusion for the poor young girl. she's a very sweet little girl. loveing and sweet to all people. i was holding her and it was time for naps. i sat her down and she turned (quickly) to go to class....
oooooooops! she ran her faced directly into the corner of the door. yea HUGE bruse.

Me Again?

i have to tell you the long and the short of it.

The Long:
i have had a personal struggle going on within myself for the past two years. it's been ugly, lonely, disapointing, hurtful , and draining. i wont go into it.
today i see some light at the end of the tunnel.
i tried to live my life without something dear to me. i thought it was what i was "supposed" to do. i know today that i was wrong. and i am glad to feel like i have hope in my future.

The Short:
i had an audition this week. i got a call back. i wont know until tomorrow what the end result is.
However
i haven't had an audition in two years. (a little more)
i have been trying to be something i'm not. i tried to leave acting behind like it wasn't what i was supposed to be doing it any more.
but today i feel like me again. i feel like i found something that was precious to me.
i guess i'm saying i learned something. you can't be something your not. and / or you have to be true to yourself to become your best self. something i have always known but somehow let myself forget. the Lord dose teach us in a mannor most effective for our own selves. i am so glad He knows me like that. i feel i have also regained my dearest friend. not that i lost Him, but that i know Him better because He knows me.

i do love the gosple. it is so complete.




UPDATE: 11/12/05

I got it!!! I'm am "Ruth" in the show titled "Dear Ruth"
Hale Center theater in Orem. the show opens Dec. 30th and runs through Feb. 4th
yippee i'm an actor again!!!!

scarey spiders

this is the best spider story ever!
this mornig young jordin was in my class with his big sister and an assortment of other mixed age group kids.
teacher mindy came to get her three year olds. (jordin among them)there was a spider on the floor next to jordin. in a moment of great ignorance mindy pointed out to jordin that the spider was crawling under him.
surprisingly enough he didn't freak out.......right away.
he thought it was cool, so he picked it up and threw it into the air. laughing and smiling. he caught it and threw it again. but that's when the trama started. ya see as the spider fell to him the second time he go.....well.....scared. and began to cry and....well scream. and all together came unglued. and freaked out.
for some reason the boy didn't expect that the spider he had so lovingly tossed into the air.....would return.
understand that the spider made no attempt to hurt him in any way. the child just freaked out. for 12 minutes. crying and sobing.
it was fully entertaining.

Prison vs. Work

I just got this emailed from my brother. i had a giggle or too.

Just in case you ever got these two mixed up, This should make things
a
bit more clear....

IN PRISON you spend the majority of your time in an 8X10 cell.
AT WORK you spend the majority of your time in a 6X8 cubicle.

IN PRISON you get three meals a day.
AT WORK you only get a break for one meal and you pay for it.

IN PRISON you get time off for good behavior.
AT WORK you get more work for good behavior.

IN PRISON the guard locks and unlocks all the doors for you.
AT WORK you must carry around a security card and open all the doors
for yourself.

IN PRISON you can watch TV and play games.
AT WORK you get fired for watching TV and playing games.

IN PRISON you get your own toilet.
AT WORK you have to share with some idiot who pees on the toilet.

IN PRISON they allow your family and friends to visit.
AT WORK you can't speak to your family.

IN PRISON all expenses are paid by the taxpayers with no work
required.
AT WORK you get to pay all the expenses to go to work and then they
deduct taxes from your salary to pay for prisoners.

IN PRISON you spend most of your life inside bars wanting to get out.
AT WORK you spend most of your time wanting to get out and go inside
bars.

IN PRISON you must deal with sadistic wardens.
AT WORK they are called managers

noodles and children

today was spaghetti day. have you ever watched a three or four year old try to eat a noodle...with a fork. it's like these compoents were never ment to meet up. it's like a bad joke. a child a noodle and a fork walk up to a bar......
really i could have watched them for a full hour. there were several different tactics going on at the table. first there was the wind up and slip. the child would get the noodle on the fork get it to witin an inch of their mouth and the noodle would abandon ship. next was the dig and shove. after missing the last bite the child would jam the fork into the plate along with their free hand and then using both hands shovel the noodles into the mouth. when that didn't work the fork was dropped the face was put as close to the plate as possible and the suck was enforced.
slurp it up kids it's the only way to eat a noodle. next time i think i will join them in the slurp. 'cause really it's very effective.

whining

do you ever have those times when you just want to forgo hygeine. forget you know what a shower is. or move far away to a place where showers are rare like......the back allies of zimbabwa.
basicly i am tired an there is way to much energy involved in being clean right now.
we better get a new cook soon. i can't take this opening everyday. okay i can. but i'm tired today and i want to whine.
whine whine whine whine whine.
k done.