What happened to the dream?

I'm at a lose my friends. I want so much to pursue the dream but I am feeling a bit discouraged. Everything in my life seems to be to "work for the bills." I hate this feeling. I want to act. I want to do more then have the everyday life.
Stupid being a grown up!
What does a girl do when the reality of life is fighting for the lead roll. I don't want to play the roll of everyday. I want to do more. I want to BE more.
But everything is money. And I don't have any. All I have is talent and that at best is getting rusty. And that wont buy plane tickets or pay an agent or afford classes.
They say if you have something to fall back on you will.
This bites! HARD!
Is there a time in life when one is really supposed to "give up" on dreams? I don't want that to be true. We are dreamers. We are players. I am more then everyday Jane American Billpayer.
Have you ever had a dream?
Are you fulfilling yours?
Do you like what you are doing with your life now?
Do you feel there is more to life then what you are doing?

Next Up...

The Next thing I"m going to learn to do is put pictures on my blog and on face book. Oh the times they are aheadin ' well ahead . And it's time to get ahead. Yea Me!
I'm getting ahead.

IM BACK!!!!

Bless You Jay! I am back to the land of blog! I was out of it. I couldn't get back into my blog. And now here I am one year later through the assistance of my dear good buddy Jay! Bless that man!

Well reader so much has happened in the year plus that I feel it necessary to skip past all of it and forge on ahead.

I currently live in Chandler Arizona. It is always warm. And that keeps me happy. I love it here. I live with my best friend. Which has its highs and lows. (we all know how girls get when the estrogen syncs up) I'm positive that I am the Crazy room mate. And I wear it with pride.

There will be more to attest to in the coming days. But for now I must go watch Wayne's World with Jay. The Beloved.

I'm Back! hehe

GRADUATION

Yup it's coming! i will graduate in two weeks!
This week will be filled with finals and finishing all the odds and ends. And ten my friends, on to victory.
Question...does anyone know where Victory lives? We have some things to discuss in the next couple of weeks.

Derek....new and improved

Picture it, a warm Feb. afternoon. The kids are leaving school for the day. Some are on the playground others are just wanting to get home.
And then there was one. Derek. He stands far away from the crowd. He is a loud boy. There is a wind on. The boy faces into the wind and shouts. No Porpose, no frustration. Not a scream, but a boyish hollar. Fullfilling a need to just make noise. He doesn't know I am watching him from were I sit. He yells with all he has. I am so much more then entertained!!!! I laugh out loud at the sight of this kid just a hollarin' to the wind. Only because I understand that need!

confession....

#1) I have never seen any of the Rocky films. (Sorry Kat)

#2) When you are sad....I am sad. (what's that about)

#3) I like it better when my brother is in jail.(I worry less)

#4) I prefer people who are Quarkie. (business is boring)

#5) I want to audition for American Idol. (Don't say "do it")

#6) I have absolutley NO desire to EVER be married.

#7) I wish I were an Oscar Mayer Wiener

The End

A great new look

Reyna wore a new hat today.
It looked like unto a jesture hat. On the ends it has little pom poms.
Eleni walks up, gives the ends a light tug so that the top is flat, and say "there. Now you look like a pinata."

THE END

It starts...

Cold and flu season has begun. I was down four kids yesterday and the ones that were there were having a "cough Olympics." Beware gang the stories are about to get better.
Think of it 15 kids. 1 class room. 2 teachers. the possiblities are endless.

A Horse Of A Different Color

Saturday I was at the mall with my bosses kids. (she was out of town and I stayed with her kids.) And were playing with those grab machines trying to win a toy from the game. ( I never win these things.) And that's what I thought in my head. "I Never Win These Things."
Suddenly there was a voice in my head. It wasn't mine. It was Meggie's! (one of my massage instructors.)
It was the old "Possitive Affermation. Will it to happen" lecture. (Yea, loud and clear!)

So I tried it. An "experiment on the word" if you will.

I said. "I'm going to win this." (it was a Care Bear) So I thought "I'll give it to Meggie to give to Maddie after I win it." (Maddie is her daughter.)

I Got it in one shot.

It was so COOL!

THEN...

I told Shannon "Dude you have to try this." I gave her two quarters and SHE GOT IT.

I thought "This is Amazing!!!"

"Matt. Come 'ere. Take these two quarters and try to get something from the grab machine. Believe you'll get it. Don't doubt it." HE GOT IT!

It was the coolest thing ever!

From there the day just kept getting better. Mostly durring my clinic shift. I had 5 AMAZING Bodywork sessions. And I got Fab. evaluations from all of my clients. One of them a staff member who gets worked on allthe time. And another who has been coming to the clinc for the past 10 years and said that in "about 250 Massages" i was among his top five.
It was s o cool cause all of my clients were like "Dude you are going to be able to work anywhere you want. Your amazing"
I could go into way more detail but its too long.
Totally a Supper Awesome Amazing Day!!!!!

I LOVE BODY WORK! ! ! !

Your mom Called.....

It's Halloween. I'm fat. and I'm comin' ta get ya.

the kids speaks out

This week one of my kids ran up to me and gave me a hug then she said "Teacher Lisa your skinny.....Kinda"

Little....

Kids

Arora: Teacher Lisa I'm fast!

Me: Who said you could be so fast?

Arora: My dad.

Me: Is your dad fast?

Arora: No. He's fat.

I challenge Anyone to beat that. She's only four. And she's already getting the hang of slammin' her parents. It was a proud day for me.

Siblings

Why is is that these people are so capable of bringing you to the brink of your sanity? Truely we care for them. Only those we let in are capable of this drive. We were raised together (to a point) and we feel we know them. Sometimes it's easier to be disapointed in them because we expect more from them. They should "know better" or something like that. We see what they CAN be. And we want that for them. And when they fall short of that, are we not more disapointed then we would be if it were just another somebody?
I'm not saying we are the perfect siblings either. We must be disapointing to them too. Otherwise they would call more. Or something. Rihgt?

Cute little guy

JACOB(4 yrs old.): Teacher Kerri you look pretty today. You look like Lisa, but your Kerri.

He is of course my new best friend!

Dog eat dog world

No for real gang do we really need to have people in this world who dress up thier dogs? Does the dog really need that experience? Come on folks! What are we doing?

job searching

I know I want a new job.
I know I'm more then done with child care.
I know I don't really want to go back into customer service.
But gang I've never done anything else. My typing "skills" are laughable.
But I need to make more $$ then I do at the day care.

Is there a dream job out there that will pay more $'s per hour. that I can do well and be happy doing? And hopefully only have to work 30 hours a week so that I can keep up with school. Oh and can it be close to provo or easy to get to by bus because I don't have a car?
Where is the Oprah Fairy when I need her?

a complex man

Today i rode the bus to school as usual. I went early for a study session before my final. ( I got an A on the final. barely) I had a different driver then normal.
This dude was crazy! Every time a woman got on the bus he was very nice and smiled all the normal things a bus driver should be. Every time a man got the bus he either tried to leave them, tell them they didn't have enough money or (my personal favorite)try to run them over. There was a man and his 10 yr old son getting thier bikes off of the front bike rack and he kept reving the engine at them! I was thinking "Dude. What's your damage. They aren't waisting time. Chill out!"
He was so odd.

Sometimes I wonder what leads a person to a job. And what keeps them there. (Kinda like my job right now.)

Anyhow the guy was a freak and I wonder....how many more are there?

Sean Patrick Sparks

Today my kids were out on the playground. As usual. Playing and making up there own fun, when I over heard my little Sean:
My name is Sean Patrick Sparks. Someday. When I'm a man. My name will be Captain. Jack. Sparrow.
Then He tilted one eyebrow at the girl he was talking to as if to say "Ya see I've already got a pirate eye."

could i see that again

okay don't be scared wheen i tell you i have a new hobbie. ive been playing in the bars as of late. doing some people watching and dancing my size 8 bum into a size 6. good times.
last night while shakin it at the big easy a guy was tryng to pick up on my friend lisa.
basicly the pick up line was something like
i saw you and your friend last night. but i wasnt sure it was you until your friend [me] turned round and i recognized her....pa dunk a dunk.

that's right people my toosh can be pulled from a line up.
there were a lot of bums in that place last night. and mine stood out above the crowd.
way to go. i wonder what am i going to do with all that junk up in my trunk.

somebody call 911

Last Saturday i was awakened by the sound of my cell phone ringing at 7 in the morning. it was a 911 operator.
O:Are you okay ma'am?
Me: huh?
O: This is 911. we got a call from this number. are you okay?
...long story short i some how rolled over my phone while slepping an dialed 911 and left them with an open line for about 12 minutes.
My bad 911. My Bad.